what the hell am i doing here

H E L L O  A L L

I have been away for far too long but hello I have finally returned to this old website dang flabbit

35mm pictures. super rad sweet shop and Vanathy and Sarah from the beginning of summer when we went to Scarborough for the day

I have just been putting off writing this for ages and ages because everything has just been so busy!! I'm still now trying to get into the swing of school again, which I'm thoroughly not enjoying at all. But that aside, summer was slightly more eventful than I thought it would be - well, I mostly just stayed in bed for hours every morning but when I did actually do a thing it was quite a big thing of a thing so I guess that made up for it a lot. This may take one or two posts to get together, I have loads of pictures as you can imagine!!

here are some random and likely badly chosen pictures from my instagram over the last few months

ew ew ew

I do not look like me and I need to actually start using the actual camera

I'm currently scrounging ebay and etsy for some cute new outfits ready for autumn/winter, which is so weird because I feel like I haven't even gotten used to wearing the few items of summer clothing I have yet. This year has gone so fast?? ?! I really want to get more co-ordinated with my clothes over the next few months, because I don't really have anything that goes well together or anything that doesn't look like I've just picked up whatever I can find on my bedroom floor (which I actually have but sshh)

French Bowie magazine I'm still trying to translate (I can't do it)

One of the big things that happened this summer was going to stay with Leoni who is the coolest, and me her and Amy had an eventful time shopping at Durham market, climbing up cathedral towers, taking photos, running after Leoni's cat Bella and crying over Benedict Cumberbatch. (u ppl im waitin on your photos from the cathedral)

"the gang"

minchellas ice cream w/ extra marshmallows

leoni

35mm pictures from Northumberland

I have heaps of letters to send to my pals on here and I'm trying to balance my time out doing everything and not just one thing (i.e. tumblr, twitter, fanfiction, schoolwork, said letter writing) because I just feel like poop when I think about not having sent anything. ah. I'm sat on my bed right now blasting Marvin Gaye, Otis Redding and Etta James and feeling really reminiscent of  the old days when I couldn't walk around the house without hearing the voice of at least one of them 24/7. Sometimes I miss being 6 years old. Also, my love for Radiohead and Grimes has expanded a loT over the summer and I've discovered that their songs go satisfyingly well together too!!

I also did my bedroom stairs up a little (I'm still working on it though)

there is now a little garland of some of my negatives, doilies with lyrics/playlists written on them, photos, paintings, two dresses and Debbie Harry/The Clash/Howards End posters which are quite cool to walk through before entering the boring bit (my actual bedroom) which is really plain because my ceilings are sloped (attic) which is a bit annoying because I can't do as much with my walls. So I'm trying to find sneaky ways around this problem by using the empty stair space while keeping them climbable!!

picture of Uhura I painted and some ebay stuff that arrived a few weeks ago

Some really surprising news is that the other day I got the go ahead from my parents to paint stuff on my bedroom walls!! I'm hoping to start with an Aladdin Sane above my bed but I'm also thinking about throwing a mr. Spock in there somewhere too hmm m. I'm so excited to do it man, I just really want to be able to spend my time in a space that I know I've made my own and that I enjoy being in if u feel

I recently joined the babemail group too and so a big hello to you if we are just meeting from that, I'm really excited to send you guys all cute letters and stuff!!

It's lovely to be here again, and hopefully I'll be blogging a lot more in the weeks to come.

see you all soon!

jemima xxxxxxxx

((p.s. I'm gonna make a playlist for you all to listen to in my next post))

((the songs are p good don't worry))

((I have a few ideas for photoshoots as well so))

((bye))

le temps de l'amour

Well HELLO THERE. It's been a while.

Last week was surprisingly okay (apart from early mornings) and I guess it feels kinda great and homey to be at school again with my friends and trying to be good-at-socialising and not awkward etc. I know I'm definitely getting back into the swing because I fell asleep in music today. Yep, it's good to be back.

I've spent most of my lessons so far daydreaming about Johnlock and getting Japanese songs stuck in my head (youtube Kyary Pamyu Pamyu she's so cute) along with the usual violent and bloody doodles of metaphor-y poems in english classes a.k.a. an even more demented and bloodthirsty Miss Havisham. I won't post it but it's a bit very Sweeney Toddy.

They've just given us our exam timetables ew yes exam season is soon and I really can't be bothered as usual - I wouldn't normally revise but of course this time they just have to be scary things that count like 70% of your gcse so I suppose I'm going to have to try and learn all the stuff somehow. Procrastination is my greatest enemy and I honestly have no idea how I will be able to overcome it at all. I'm hopeless.

In other news, it's non uniform yet again on friday for a charity I can't remember so while I have the rest of my outfit //sort of// mapped out I am still yet to decide whether to wear these fishnets or the star tights (or both as odd stockings maybe???) but anyway. I customised my new saddle shoes a tiny bit with stickers and other tingz here:

I'm too lazy to edit these though ahahaha. (It's half two in the morning though so understandable ok understandable) There are some sparkly bits chillin on there and I just finished sewing the last of what little lace I ever possess onto some white socks so I'll wear those too. And the position of my ridiculously big clown feet reminds me of the beginning of dancing in the street.

Here are two random pictures I took in my room for an art homework one time, I can't really remember when.

 bowiebowiebowiebowiebowie

Also last friday my friend Vanathy had a party at Fancie which is a BEAUTIFUL AND DELICIOUS AND DREAMY chain of cupcake shops which are a bit famous in my city. I hope they branch out and SHARE THE LOVE AcRoSs the galaxy and that. They're really cool because they cater for anything like they have gluten free and vegan and non chocolate brownies called blondies and gahjbdhsnl it's all just so cool.

Yes so anyway, she had a cupcake decorating party and aside from going mad and eating all the frosting/nutella/jam/rainbow sprinkles and drinking all the pink milk straight away we all managed to get four home each in one piece. The pink milk was beautiful (I felt like I was in a Charlie and Lola story) and here's my ~*before and after oooooo*~

my cup of marshmallows kept mysteriously disappearing... . ... .. ..... .

The table was in a right state after we were finished, the cleaners probably enjoyed that.......

THE SUMMER VIBES ARE ALL A SPRINGIN and the weather is changing finally! It's about time. (snow  in april omg.) here's a beach boys tune to express my joy and some pictures.

And the lovely Kate Bush because I am in a fish people mood right now. Contrastingly sad.

And zat will be all for now my friendz

❤xxxxxxxxxx❤

p.s. I also have a piano exam next month ***CRIES***

the world can show nothing to me

Hi guys yo guys hey it's me again

(4 new records I got from st. luke's for 80p.)

I was watching iCarly for the first time in a while with my sister today and something hit me suddenly. There have been continuous adverts for an 'iGoodbye' or something (can't really remember) but apparently the last ever episode of the show is going to be aired in two days time and it just made me feel weird, put simply. I've spent a good part of my life watching that show and I think that seeing as it started when they were all thirteen-ish, it seems, as with all child actors I guess, that they are or should be somehow immortalised in those thirteen-year-old bodies forever. It feels strange to see them as fully grown adults, it's almost scary woah. How did Miranda Cosgrove turn twenty so quickly? The little eleven year old from Drake and Josh? My new Beach Boys album comes into this post kinda well actually because of course:

"Wouldn't it be nice if we were older

Then we wouldn't have to wait so long."

One of the things a kid wants to do the most would probably be to 'grow up' and be treated like an adult. But we don't realise then that with growing up comes so much more - general responsibility for one, and yet more freedom, yet still more chores and more work - right now I'm internally screaming "let me stay fifteen forever!"

I know of course that you are as young as you feel, and most of the time I do feel I am about nine in my head, but sometimes I get a bit worried that I won't feel that inner nine year old reaching out to me, and that eventually it will turn into a ten year old, then an eleven year old and so on. I think I just need to remember that whenever I feel I need an immaturity boost, I can just watch the spongebob movie (which I know off by heart). In school I'm the only one who still laughs at the mention of the word 'poo' and even though the laughing spreads around through my friends everyone else just looks at me funny. But you know what? I don't care about that anymore. Let me giggle at poo and boobies!!!!!!!!!

Saying this now has just made me think of a post by Hollie from a while back and thus I give you drum roll please something cool she drew here (which I totally don't stalkerishly have saved on my phone) (if you're reading this Hollie I hope you don't mind)

It's things like that what make you realise that we really are growing up incredibly fast, and now I feel like I need to make the most of ze old youth because well it's true what they say, isn't it? - life really is short. Some days I won't leave the house of my own accord, maybe because I'm too lazy or tired or just not bothered, but either way it will end in me overthinking the theory that I AM WASTING MY LIFE and I MUST DO STUFF OR DIE and it depresses me. I'm not very creative, and I wish so much that I was, but I don't have a very good mind to think of my own things to draw and make and so before I know it more than half the day has been spent in bed. I was looking forward to this three week break from schoolwork so that I could really focus on trying to extract any amount of imagination from myself but so far all I've done is thought of two new ways to not feel sick after eating too much chocolate. (1. stop eating more stuff on top of it  2. have water and watch some f.r.i.e.n.d.s)

There are so many people on the internet that admittedly I envy a tiny bit, purely on the basis that they have super rad interesting thoughts and ways of going about things, when sometimes I just feel like a bit of a useless lump sittin' around hoping that one day I can be something like them. So I've decided to do more things with myself and step out of my comfort zones and venture into the wilderness more to try and stimulate my currently non-existent mind-of-my-own. If that makes any sense.

Moving onwards and upwards as they say, here are some pictures I took today. (omg that rhymed I'm a poet and I didn't know it) Sorry about the quality!

Trying to be Helena Bonham Carter in this photo

New supa disco shirt

Sort of finished a painting zomgazomg (for art, from this. I'm doing the french revolution.) (her face went super wrong)

I'll end with the second part of the first verse of that beach boys tune:

"And wouldn't it be nice to live together 

In the kind of world where we belong"

And this is my all time favourite song of theirs. These might be the beginnings of a serious infatuation with them, so beware.

Jemima ❤xxxxxxxxxx❤

spellbound

Hello to you and thanks for joining this is exciting isn't it! (I've been watching series 1 and 2 of Miranda on a loop ever since I got it for my birthday last month. Can you tell?)

This post has been a long time in coming because to tell you the truth, I just haven't been bothered had time. It's exam week (apparently for everyone) and the past week has been spent with my parents forcing me to 'revise' when I'm really just drawing and writing stuff that has nothing to do with school. I'm totally going to fail, aren't I.

On the bright side though I started a zine on tuesday in one of our revision periods. It was a sort of spur of the moment thing, I've never been imaginative enough to write one before but I drew a pentacle which turned into a playlist which I took home and decorated a tiny bit. Then I thought ZINE! (they're harder to draw than they look, wow) And it's my first one so I don't know how it'll turn out. But again we're back to school and I'm SO TIRED. I keep falling asleep and the only thing getting me through this week is the fact that I'm seeing Les Miserables (omg) tomorrow which I'm already obsessed with. I begged my parents to book the tickets before christmas and wow they actually did I'm so excited.

1. Future Legend - David Bowie

2. Main Title - Edward Scissorhands Soundtrack

3. Heart Shaped Box - Nirvana

4. Leave it Open - Kate Bush

5. Northern Star - Hole

6. California Dreamin' - Mamas and Papas

7. The Tears - Robots in Disguise

8. Desperado - Alice Cooper

9. Forget - Lianne La Havas

10. Season of The Witch - Donovan

11. Waking The Witch - Kate Bush

12. Hugo's Father - Hugo Soundtrack

Or youtube it here.

There are weird ones (1, 4, 11) rock-y ones (3, 5, 8) soundtracks (2, 12) and guitar-y ones (6, 9, 10) and I tried to mix them up so it's not too bad, but I don't know what goes well really. The whole zine's on lined paper for the back-to-school-ness that's going on now ew.

My new Rookie yearbook is great and I've been reading it and looking at the wonderful photo shoots for inspiration and such over the past few weeks. (Petra Collins sure has skillz.) It's so cool and sparkly and pretty and cute aw. I started a diary on new year's day and I really want to keep it going, which is going to be tough because I move on from things really easily because I've got no real sense of determination which I want to fix. (new year's resolution maybe?)

Sorry about all these brackets I can't handle writing any other way.

My 50s ice skates arrived shortly before christmas from ebay, and I'm still trying to work out why I bought them because I stopped skating properly about four years ago. Still, I have fixed the blades on properly because they were just so wobbly and definitely not good to skate in, and I'm thinking I might even start going again like I used to because it's still winter and I'm still allowed to be sparkly winter wonderlandy ok. It's suddenly gone freezing hasn't it? o_o

This is what I wore the other day which isn't one of my nicest outfits but I thought I'd take a picture anyway. And I cut off my face for you.

Budgie collar shirt from ebay, skirt and jumper thrifted. These rubbish outfit photos will hopefully get better, I'm getting a new camera soon (I hope).

And guess what we have big news, we're getting a dog on the 1st of february!!!!!! We're calling him Jasper look how cute he is he's only five weeks old.

This is his dad Jack who is beautiful, and I didn't get a good photo of Lucy (mum).

Also I'm officially fifteen as of the 28th of December, and I feel exactly the same, how outrageous.

And year ten hasn't been the bees knees either, exams here, homework there, it's just constant work work work and there's no time do do stuff I like. uggggh teen life

I'll finish now on these pictures because tiredness, I'm sorry. But nevertheless have a good... um life I suppose and I'll be back soon.

there's a bowie poster there's a bowie poster omg

Drawing/painting of Flower I made her for christmas which you may or may not have seen on her blog, new background, Carolyn's room from Dark Shadows (ideal bedroom) and someone's record collection (ideal record collection) I found on tumblr.

Jemima ❤xxxxxxxxxx❤